Week 31:


Marlee has been more active these days, kicking around in my stomach, and using my rib cage as a foot stool! She has had the hiccups every now and again (Speaking of which, she has them right now! Which feel so strange btw ha ha) She loves it when I sing to her. I keep having dreams about giving birth, and getting to hold Marlee for the first time. Dreams are very vivid now a days. She has changed my life forever! I've become so attached to her and can't wait to hold her in my arms!! 


Symptoms: I have had problems with this since Week 14, my sciatic nerve has been causing me back pains. It is getting harder and harder to put pants on and off. I can't reach my feet now, and it seems impossible to get my shoes on (thank goodness for flip flops!) I have back aches in general that I just have to stretch out every once in a while. Although bending over is taking it's toll on me. I keep forgetting that I'm pregnant, and that I can't just bend over ha ha (Toppling over taught me that lesson the hard way) Unfortunately for me, I've chosen to take the no exercise route through out this pregnancy, something I've been regretting since day one. This has made it difficult to have a good self-esteem, and have high confidence, but I'm determined to get into shape, and live a healthy life style as soon as she is here. 


Before I was pregnant, I purchased a workout program that looked great for me. I started it out and 5 weeks in I had to stop and think. I wasn't losing any weight, although I hadn't felt better in my life, I still wasn't shedding the weight. I went to my doctor, and she told me my birth control was making it so I wasn't able to lose weight, but I was gaining weight instead. So I quickly got off the pill and took  break from the workout because I was starting to not feel like myself, only to find out a week later that I was pregnant! Because of the long break (4 weeks) of not exercising, I lost motivation and convinced myself that anything hardcore like Turbo Fire, was going to harm my baby, (TOTALLY NOT TRUE). So I never worked out, in fear that I'd hurt my baby. So I started off on the journey of regret then and there. I'm excited though to find out how Turbo Fire works for me after I'm not pregnant! I want to be a healthy mom for my baby girl, and I want to be her role model! I don't ever want her to see me as depressed as I was throughout my pregnancy, and before that! I want her to see me as the bright, fit, healthy mom who is FUN! I want to be just like my mom! She was always that role model for me! I always saw her exercising, and always eating healthy, and always giving me the time of day, and just being there for me in general! She was always full of life, and just was always POSITIVE! She built me up to who I am today, and I've never been so grateful to her for that!  I want to be just like her, I just hope I can be! :) 


Life in Monterey:


Life here is interesting. It's hard being so far away from family while in my first pregnancy. I miss my mom, and the long talks we shared together every day. I miss being able to see my friends and family when I wanted, and knowing they were there if I needed them. My mom played a huge part in being my support for anything I did. She was always building me up to know that I can and am able of doing anything I put my mind to. She was always pushing me to do good, and always praising me when I did. She would always be honest with me making sure I knew right from wrong, and that I had the choice to make the right one! Here in Monterey, it is much different.