Week 31:


Marlee has been more active these days, kicking around in my stomach, and using my rib cage as a foot stool! She has had the hiccups every now and again (Speaking of which, she has them right now! Which feel so strange btw ha ha) She loves it when I sing to her. I keep having dreams about giving birth, and getting to hold Marlee for the first time. Dreams are very vivid now a days. She has changed my life forever! I've become so attached to her and can't wait to hold her in my arms!! 


Symptoms: I have had problems with this since Week 14, my sciatic nerve has been causing me back pains. It is getting harder and harder to put pants on and off. I can't reach my feet now, and it seems impossible to get my shoes on (thank goodness for flip flops!) I have back aches in general that I just have to stretch out every once in a while. Although bending over is taking it's toll on me. I keep forgetting that I'm pregnant, and that I can't just bend over ha ha (Toppling over taught me that lesson the hard way) Unfortunately for me, I've chosen to take the no exercise route through out this pregnancy, something I've been regretting since day one. This has made it difficult to have a good self-esteem, and have high confidence, but I'm determined to get into shape, and live a healthy life style as soon as she is here. 


Before I was pregnant, I purchased a workout program that looked great for me. I started it out and 5 weeks in I had to stop and think. I wasn't losing any weight, although I hadn't felt better in my life, I still wasn't shedding the weight. I went to my doctor, and she told me my birth control was making it so I wasn't able to lose weight, but I was gaining weight instead. So I quickly got off the pill and took  break from the workout because I was starting to not feel like myself, only to find out a week later that I was pregnant! Because of the long break (4 weeks) of not exercising, I lost motivation and convinced myself that anything hardcore like Turbo Fire, was going to harm my baby, (TOTALLY NOT TRUE). So I never worked out, in fear that I'd hurt my baby. So I started off on the journey of regret then and there. I'm excited though to find out how Turbo Fire works for me after I'm not pregnant! I want to be a healthy mom for my baby girl, and I want to be her role model! I don't ever want her to see me as depressed as I was throughout my pregnancy, and before that! I want her to see me as the bright, fit, healthy mom who is FUN! I want to be just like my mom! She was always that role model for me! I always saw her exercising, and always eating healthy, and always giving me the time of day, and just being there for me in general! She was always full of life, and just was always POSITIVE! She built me up to who I am today, and I've never been so grateful to her for that!  I want to be just like her, I just hope I can be! :) 


Life in Monterey:


Life here is interesting. It's hard being so far away from family while in my first pregnancy. I miss my mom, and the long talks we shared together every day. I miss being able to see my friends and family when I wanted, and knowing they were there if I needed them. My mom played a huge part in being my support for anything I did. She was always building me up to know that I can and am able of doing anything I put my mind to. She was always pushing me to do good, and always praising me when I did. She would always be honest with me making sure I knew right from wrong, and that I had the choice to make the right one! Here in Monterey, it is much different. 

So Marlee has been kicking like crazy! I am now 28 weeks along, and am feeling...well besides the back pain, the hacking down a prenatal every night, not being able to reach my feet, and feeling like a fat balloon, it's GREAT! I love being able to feel Marlee inside of me kicking. It's a good reminder that she is healthy and strong. 
So, since we've moved to Monterey, life has been crazy! First of all the adventure here was absolutely unbearable! So many things went wrong for us on the way here. One thing after another, it felt like it was never going to end. Well we finally got settled in and everything was starting to seem relaxed when our cats decided to go pee in our closet. Yup, not only did they choose MY closet, but they chose the bin that held all 5 pairs of my shoes! All of them were ruined! After that, the military changed my husbands schedule from 4 am-4 pm monday through friday, to 7am-8:30pm...ridiculous...I think so! I am his chauffeur and so I get the lovely task of dropping him off at 7, picking him up at 10:45 for lunch, dropping him back off on base at 12:00, picking him up again at 3:45 for PT, going home, coming back to pick him up at 5:10, and then coming home, then dropping him off at 6:30 and then picking him up at 8:30...my life is literally based off of his schedule. Other then that, I've had to worry about registering our car here in California, only to find out (after going to the DMV, signing all the papers, doing all the tests) that all I had to do was call up the DMV in Logan Utah and verify that we had moved for the military and that we were going to be there only for 6 months. That's just one of the issues here! We've decided that we want me to go home early with my parents, so that I can have help, and so that Landon will be able to study at home without distractions. I'm still a little weary on it, but it will be for the best! I will be able to come home and have extra hands to help me out with the baby, and I'll be able to set things up at home for when Landon returns to me. I'm not too excited that it will be around 2 months of time away from Landon, but right now we need to do what's best for us. (Honestly, I think once our baby is here, I'll change my mind because I'll want to spend as much time with the baby and Landon as possible!) I'll have to update you more on what we decide :) 12 more weeks~